we become suns

when pinecones are babies they are bright green. they glow with promises. they grow just to grow... they raise their faces up to the sun... they love the sun and the sun loves them. the sun is a guardian of this planet. and we are the living frequencies between the sun and the earth. when we turn our face to the sun, we are sun-charged, we are sun babies, we are sun spots, we glow & grow just to grow. we keep the sun happy. when we are happy with the sun it amplifies our frequency. when our frequency amplifies, the structure of our very matter will change. because all of our matter is only frequency. which wants to hum so wildly that we turn into pure light. and we become suns.

i found some lilacs today on my morning walk. i wore my bone mala beads and counted my footsteps.  every bird sang and every tree was swaying. every step stamped out the fire that fear can create. i became a mama lion protecting her cubs. nothing can stop us when we are mama lions. open up your mouth and roar because you are a mama lion. a brave and wild fearless raging sun and all the world is yours to love. 

starsieve transmissions

ive been doing these daily song-thoughts. lo-fi starsieve transmissions. little tone thoughts with seeds inside...  each layer is sung individually and separately from the others...  then they are played all together... the result is random and sometimes filled with cosmic magic.  each seed has a love message with no words... they are free to download on my soundcloud page.  i will be adding new transmissions until i stop :) feel free to download them and use them to bliss out or ground and ascend.

moon-cooled

half of our body is illuminated, and half of our body is in dark shadow.
this is the natural balance of things. it cant be all light. not yet. so the
best we can do is be ok with the shadow... sometimes the shadow is
loneliness. sometimes it is sorrow. sometimes it is disagreement. & on
the worst days, it is a monster inside that we didnt know we could be.
oh! how we think we should be so much better than we are by now!?
and the tricky thing about shadow is... the more we think about it, the
more it gobbles up the light. and we swirl in fear & guilt & confusion.
yesterday my shadow was in the form of a heron.. it sat on the edge of
water & spied me. i had to face my heron but i didnt have the strength.
thats when i fell in a deep sleep on my pillows. my legs became a tree
trunk and my body was as heavy as an elephant. i stayed very still...
i wanted to ascend into pure love and light... but i was way too afraid.

thats when it happened. thats when i was moon-cooled... a light fairy
took me to the moon & i rested in the place where the shadow meets
the light. i stayed there for some time just waiting. then she began to
pour light blue sand over the top of me. it fell down in cold powdery
waves until i was covered in a cone of sea-blue sand. i stayed there
in my tipi where it was cool. dwelling in peace. in a cone of neutrality.
until i could move again... when i got up, the inside of me was steady
and my arms were light. i sat up on the edge of my nest and blinked.
i had found moon-cooled neutrality & it was a simple weapon to grasp.
i looked at the heron right in the eye and did not feel one single thing.

ever in need of ganesha

one of the most important things to meditate on is a question:
what is my purpose right now? what is the core of what i need
to be doing? it can be anything. and once that light has gone on.
you know where to put your eyes... you begin to visualize it...
it is you becoming. your work of power. it takes time and work..
knowing your exact purpose for *now* can help you with something:

once you know your purpose, you can finally understand why certain
blockages are in your life. they will always be in direct opposition
to what you are trying to achieve. now you know why they are there!
they are the mayan wind. the force to push against. you have defined
your goal and therefore can more easily recognize what the obstacles
are doing there! they are helping you by giving you trouble, something
to overcome or to work against. they have to be there to push against,
to overcome and to complete the inner most desires of our hearts.
sometimes we think, "oh maybe i didnt want that anyway." and give up.
♥ but god bless my blockages. cause im going to knock them down. ♥

newness & the round moon

sometimes when we begin to understand things better, we get new

programs to use. but then instead of using them, we go back to our

old programs... the ones we know better. because they are easier.

here is to granting bravery to our new branches! let them find just

enough sunlight to grow leaves and bear fruit. but these things

take time ♥ there is nothing wrong with a good rest when learning.

i found quite a few new books to read! i have a new blanket with rings

of wise elephants on it now, and we sit together and dream under stars.

we breath the mountains deep into our hollow bellies and feel full. then

we drink in lunar energy when the moon is round and glow for 30 days.

we will glow in the dark until it is time to drink it all in again ♥