Wednesday, 11 April 2012

moon-cooled


half of our body is illuminated, and half of our body is in dark shadow.
this is the natural balance of things. it cant be all light. not yet. so the
best we can do is be ok with the shadow... sometimes the shadow is
loneliness. sometimes it is sorrow. sometimes it is disagreement. & on
the worst days, it is a monster inside that we didnt know we could be.
oh! how we think we should be so much better than we are by now!?
and the tricky thing about shadow is... the more we think about it, the
more it gobbles up the light. and we swirl in fear & guilt & confusion.
yesterday my shadow was in the form of a heron.. it sat on the edge of
water & spied me. i had to face my heron but i didnt have the strength.
thats when i fell in a deep sleep on my pillows. my legs became a tree
trunk and my body was as heavy as an elephant. i stayed very still...
i wanted to ascend into pure love and light... but i was way too afraid.

thats when it happened. thats when i was moon-cooled... a light fairy
took me to the moon & i rested in the place where the shadow meets
the light. i stayed there for some time just waiting. then she began to
pour light blue sand over the top of me. it fell down in cold powdery
waves until i was covered in a cone of sea-blue sand. i stayed there
in my tipi where it was cool. dwelling in peace. in a cone of neutrality.
until i could move again... when i got up, the inside of me was steady
and my arms were light. i sat up on the edge of my nest and blinked.
i had found moon-cooled neutrality & it was a simple weapon to grasp.
i looked at the heron right in the eye and did not feel one single thing.

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

You know, the dark side of the moon is a misnomer; even it is blessed with the light of the sun. It is just facing away (far side) from Earth, so we never SEE it in sun. So just because we don't see the sun piercing through the shadows, it doesn't mean that it's not there. Shadows in our lives are good, they make the light and warmth so much more warm and bright. It's just never good to linger in the shadows, then warm and light never penetrate. Even the moon knows this. :) I hope that made sense. Love you!

stephanie dosen said...

thank you :) made perfect sense in deed.
i think we can learn a lot from the moon!
luna-soul-sister-chang-o-white-rabbit
half-and-half-yin-yang-powdery-glow-globe ♥

stephanie dosen said...

indeed :) in deed :)

Roselie said...

Oh that was so lovely! It captured exactly how I feel at the moment... now I am waiting for the light fairy to take me to the moon...

stephanie dosen said...

so good! she loves to take people there!
in fact she was very very happy to take me
and did such with great urgency like...
*sigh* why are you JUST asking me now! sheesh!
lets Gooooooo WHOOshh! and we were there in a jif
i know your trip will be glorious! ♥

Anonymous said...

It sounds quite a bit like the Mr. at 1:49 :)

Valerianna said...

Now THAT'S a healng journey! (and I did finally spot the luna wing in the photo from the last post.. just when I was signing off...

Pixie said...

Such beautiful words,,,,you should write a book of poetry...it would be wondeful, i know it would. x

Elizabeth said...

That was lovely, sweets. and timely. just what i needed to hear... i think i'll go have a chat with the moon fairy...
xoxo

Casey said...

I second the poetry book suggestion

stephanie dosen said...

thank you starpetals! ♥

Jason2356 said...

Effortlessly...and without even thinking...traveling through the doorway of the breath...a whole new world...

Anonymous said...

daevid wrote this for a daevid allen/kramer record in 1992 while staying at my apt. in NYC, he would say, "I always acknowledge and bow to the Shadow.. I have great respect because the Shadow teaches us." Of course it is also the source of our creativity. Glad that you are back here...

Anthropomorphica said...

I love the shadow it helps me create!

liz said...

You are wonderful in so many ways Stephanie thankyou just thankyou though it feels like I'm saying so much more